Throughout the
course of last week, I have been truly questioning what holds value in my life.
As usual, I went through the day to day activities and learned as much as I
possibly could about community mobilization, evidence based planning, correct
condom use, personal risk reduction, and emergency action plans. Ironically
enough, we also had a session on mental & emotional health right before I
received an email I hoped to never receive from back home….
My dad had a stroke
last week and has been hospitalized again. Immediately upon reading the email,
and directly following our mental health session, I broke out into tears and
ran to call back home. What I fear the most is happening as we speak - a loved
one is in the hospital and I have no way of helping. It's a horrible, horrible
feeling.
Luckily, my country
director was in Kanye presenting that day so I had the chance to discuss my
dad's health with him. The entirety of
the Peace Corps staff has been incredibly supportive and I couldn't have asked
for a better response. My close friends
here (and back at home) have been wonderful help to me as well. Despite all the
love , encouragement and prayers, I'm still thousands of miles away from home
which is a difficult feeling to overcome. One of my friends here commented the
other day about how I have been immediately thrown into the most difficult
aspect of serving as a Peace Corps Volunteer… you're simply not able to be
around for people at home when you desperately want to be able to show that you
care.
I've spoken with
several friends & family back home about my dad's health condition since
then and he has been released from the ICU. They are trying to find a rehab
center for him to recover from everything and I'm not sure of the details
behind all of that yet either. Please, please send prayers & positive
thoughts for my father right now…. I love you so much daddy! I wish I could be
there for you.
In an attempt to
keep myself sane, I have still been attending all scheduled events to distract
myself from getting upset. On Friday, we went to the capital to see the Diamond
Trading Center and polishing factory. Our group had the opportunity to learn about
how diamonds are bought/sold in Botswana and how they affect the economy here.
Diamonds are largely responsible for the success of this nation after their
independence in 1966, so we were all excited to learn more about the industry.
As it turns out, we got to see all the science behind cutting & polishing
diamonds from start to finish. People who worked there allowed us to hold some
truly incredible diamonds… I even got to hold a 10 karat yellow diamond, valued
at $2 million. Can you even imagine having the money to purchase that diamond?
We all left with a
greater appreciation of the diamond industry and a sickening awareness of how
materialistic people can be. A tiny little rock, which looks like a piece of
unpolished glass in the beginning, suddenly holds an insane amount of value
because of marketing and a high demand for the product. I'm not trying to be a
hypocrite either… I definitely own diamond jewelry. It's just insane to hold a
piece of carbon in your hands, valued at a higher price than all your worldly
possessions combined… and really, it's worthless.
I laughed
hysterically we asked an employee there she liked diamonds. Her response?
"AH! These
(pointing at a whole row of diamonds)? No. They are just rocks."
What holds value in
your life?
I know after two
months of living in Botswana, my material items don't mean much to me at all
anymore. Sure, it might be an inconvenience if I lost them, but like my mommy
always says, "If you can fix it with money, it isn't a problem."
People everywhere tend to lose sight of the things that matter the most when we
are faced with busy schedules and expectations. I'm guilty of it too. And trust
me, it isn't a unique occurrence in America either.
Kiss your loved ones, give thanks for the
necessities in life we take for granted (food & shelter), and remember that
life is never a guarantee. My family holds the greatest value in my life, along
with my friends. We are, after all, social creatures and relationships are
meant to be created and fostered throughout the years. I am truly saddened that
I cannot be in Colorado with my family right now, but I know that I can rest in
my faith that things will all turn out alright.
Praying that this
finds you well in your corner of the world.
Love & Light,
TMV
P.S. Thank you thank
you thank you to Lizzy & Michael for visiting my dad in the hospital. I
appreciate it so much more than I could ever express… I'm so blessed to have
each of you in my life <3